They were lyrics to a song—I couldn’t fully grasp the context of that message back then(or why you randomly sent it to me), but a few years later, I finally get it. It sorta goes hand-in-hand with Paulo Coelho’s:  ”And when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it.” 

At this point, there’s no use in hiding. Everybody knows/nose. I don’t deny it either. And they insist on pushing. Is this all peer-influenced? Possibly. The force has been strong with this one, though it all happened, naturally. That gravitational pull—I’m not even trying, man. Are the magnets real though? Definitely. But I must admit, they weren’t real for you. And in the back of your mind, you probably knew it, too. So, allow me to over-analyze and theorize that you were hinting something. Because things have a funny way of falling into place.

It’s crazy how these things strike a chord at 3 in the AM. Ah, the notorious “witching hour.” And I received that text in the middle of the night as well. Hweird. 

Oh yeah, i’ve been waking up around 3 for the past few days, usually  accompanied by a string of absurd dreams. First, was a blue neon-lit secret bar that could only be accessed via waterfall, like the Batcave. Second, was about a porcelain animated doll without the demonic appearance and serial killer tendencies. But still,  F that Annabelle film, man.  

Goodness, do you know how hard it is to be unable to share something that you’re super excited about? This sentence doesn’t sound right. Awkward AF. Oh, well. I haven’t written in forever(but that shouldn’t be an excuse for mediocre language).
ANYWAY…
Funny story, flashback to a few weeks ago:
I was in the shower, of all places, when my sister and cousin walked into the bathroom telling me to hurry,  because roe-dawg had something to share with everyone. As I lathered my thoughts with Pantene Pro-V, I speculated that it was either an engagement or pregnancy announcement.  
It was the latter.
Now, as lifeless as that statement sounds, it conveys the exact emotion I felt as I sat there, on the living room bench, head slightly turned and facing my family in the dining area. The news crept up my nerves and cut the cable between my brain and mouth. 
I was unable to register the information. Until my heart coerced my brain to do the unthinkable: activate tear ducts.
I don’t cry, I told them repeatedly. I don’t cry. 
I hate you, heart. 
I was no longer numb, the words flowed through my veins like fruit punch, and life never felt sweeter.  
I was beyond excited(still am!), went up to hug my sister and told her that she is gonna be an amazing mom(which is totes true! she was born ready for this!). And Kuya Ronn is gonna be an awesome dad as well.
As for me, i’m ready to be the cool auntie who is going to get the kid into dinosaurs, animals, and space/science things(and everything fun under the sun!) …and sneak the kid a sip of beer every now and then(kidding, kinda). “it’s funny tasting apple juice, mom!” HAHA. 
We are all excited for my roe-dawg and trey songz to enter this wonderfully new chapter of their lives. One thing for sure is that he/she going to be one spoiled( and super loved!) child. 
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I could’ve shared this a long time ago. I don’t think people even blog/Tumblr, anymore? 

Goodness, do you know how hard it is to be unable to share something that you’re super excited about? This sentence doesn’t sound right. Awkward AF. Oh, well. I haven’t written in forever(but that shouldn’t be an excuse for mediocre language).

ANYWAY…

Funny story, flashback to a few weeks ago:

I was in the shower, of all places, when my sister and cousin walked into the bathroom telling me to hurry,  because roe-dawg had something to share with everyone. As I lathered my thoughts with Pantene Pro-V, I speculated that it was either an engagement or pregnancy announcement.  

It was the latter.

Now, as lifeless as that statement sounds, it conveys the exact emotion I felt as I sat there, on the living room bench, head slightly turned and facing my family in the dining area. The news crept up my nerves and cut the cable between my brain and mouth. 

I was unable to register the information. Until my heart coerced my brain to do the unthinkable: activate tear ducts.

I don’t cry, I told them repeatedly. I don’t cry. 

I hate you, heart. 

I was no longer numb, the words flowed through my veins like fruit punch, and life never felt sweeter.  

I was beyond excited(still am!), went up to hug my sister and told her that she is gonna be an amazing mom(which is totes true! she was born ready for this!). And Kuya Ronn is gonna be an awesome dad as well.

As for me, i’m ready to be the cool auntie who is going to get the kid into dinosaurs, animals, and space/science things(and everything fun under the sun!) …and sneak the kid a sip of beer every now and then(kidding, kinda). “it’s funny tasting apple juice, mom!” HAHA. 

We are all excited for my roe-dawg and trey songz to enter this wonderfully new chapter of their lives. One thing for sure is that he/she going to be one spoiled( and super loved!) child. 

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I could’ve shared this a long time ago. I don’t think people even blog/Tumblr, anymore?